Attention: If you've been tagged, you must write your answers in your own LJ and replace any question that you dislike with a new, original question. ... Or you will be infected with the internet flu and your 25th born will grow up to be on Reality TV!


Who sleeps in bed next to you?
my cat Ginger!!!

What did you last eat?
Burger King- Double cheese burger with a small fries

What TV shows are you watching?
lots but mostly smallville, soth park, deadly women, sponge Bob, Degrassi etc

What are you reading right now?
Nothing right now but I want the sequel to "UGLIES"

If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be?
Japan!!! osaka Japan with friends ^_^

What's really creepy?
Some guy marrying his video game...okay....

Name one odd item within five feet of you.
ummmm my clothes all over my chair...IDK...

What's your current fandom / obsession / addiction?
w-inds, Shota shimizu, Japanese language/writing/music

What did you really want to do today that you didn't?
Home work lol but I'm still resting

What are you most excited for?
My new CDs that should be comming in the mail.

What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Live Journal, twitter, face book, Thelma Aoyama blog, some jpop music forums and my JP blog, yahoo

What was the last thing you bought?
Food

What do you want right this minute, off the top of your head?
A new iPod

What's your biggest procrastination method?
I just have a procrastination problem! I do everything the day before it's due.

Are there any bits of childhood that you miss?
Yes, before I met someone in my life

Spring, Summer, Autumn, Winter?
Autumn Duhhh that's my name! lol and spring

Say something to the person who tagged you.
Thanks for the tag! cosmickimchi This was fun ^_- I guess Imma real sexy person then LOL! Jp

Now I'm gonna tag.... sapphire_niji screamit0ut xiao_tsubasa cocojewels or anyone just passing and wants to do it :)

I tried to tell them

I'm going through so much

It's like they're just brushing me off

You play it tough and that's never enough

Guess they don't understand what they don't know

God, please free my soul

I'm under everyone else's control but my own

my skin is as hard as a rock and a stone

Crying is not a sign of victory

crying is my way to show my dignity

I'm just letting you know before you go

No one knows what they don't know

-Autumn R

As I open my mouth
nothing comes out
thoughts spiraling about

My bones stiffen
my hands clenching into a fist
everything my brain tells my
mouth to say it's dismissed

now I'm pissed, I'm not in control anymore
I still have time I could just run right
out that door

My heartbeat races in my ear
sweat trickles near my eyes

I'm wasting time
another second and I'm screwed
everyone, I'm sure knew

They could see the fear in my eyes
makes me wanna cry...

maybe that's a lie
my mind's just playing tricks on me
to hurt me

How I feel, maybe they can't see
maybe it's just me

bright lights,
shined upon my forehead
noise became dead

I took a deep breath and
made some progress

Just what I wanted came out
a melody and a tune that
was conveyed to you

-Autumn R

Lost in my own world
A world that's so cold
I'm drowning in my self vanity

I try to cover it all up as
my fake eye lash falls to the floor
I need more! I need more...

I use lavish amounts and yet
it doesn't count
the pain won't go away...

I'm shivering again today
I think it's getting worse
I'm starting to see dirt!

If you were to look at me
you'd probably just see a women's face
but when I look at me
all I see is a disgrace
a waste of space

A worthless person, that I try to hide
behind fake pride and cosmetic lines

don't know how I got this way
I don't know who made me this way
It's no one's fault but mines

It's about time that I find the Answer
to this curse that you may not see
haunting me~ 
-Autumn R

omfgosh I don't have the internet untill the weekend! I'm writing this from my phone I'm so angry! tomorrow is my first day of college as an offical freshman lol a freshman all over again... ahhh I can't wait to write an entry properly! I hate this! *sigh...* shoganai I guess... well that's about it PEACES V